Tender Foot and Other Stuffs

Well, I have a tender foot. Yep doctors will even put needles in your feet lol. I got a boost of steroids in the bad foot the other day at the doc office. Wow, how uncomfortable that injection was. Whew. I am not a wimp to medical procedures since I have been facing them most of my life. I can usually watch just about anything and have watched my knee surgeries. I’m usually awake for those too. Danny had to hold my hand for this one and I couldn’t watch. I thought I was going to break his hand when my doc was doing that injection. Poor Danny, he hates needles and he had stay with me for that one. He just turned his back and closed his eyes. I held one hand and he stroked my head with the other one. I was doing deep breathing and saying ow, ow, ow the whole time. My doc is such a nice guy (even tho he stuck a needle in my foot lol) and was saying I’m sorry the whole time lol. He even rubbed my back a little when I sat up when he was done. The hope was that putting the steroid right where the problem is that the steroid would do it’s job and take care of the inflammation. No such luck. I still have no movement in those toes and retain the little movement I had in my big toe and the toe next to it. To say this is frustrating is an understatement. I just don’t know what else to do. My next RD appointment is Feb. 3rd. We will have to wait til then to see what he says. My pcp doc will do no more than the steroid injection since I have a top notch RD. I am not sure if I can do an MRI because I have titanium plates and screws in that leg from my high tibial osteotomy. All I know is that something has to be done. I can’t do crap and it sucks. The crutches are getting pretty annoying too. Crutch to the bathroom…crutch to the kitchen…make some food…have someone carry it for me. What really sucks is when Danny is sleeping and I’m hungry, I have to walk on it. I kinda walk on the side where the big toe is lol. I walk all lopsided. I can’t put full weight on it…it would hurt tooo dang much. I need to get a bell that I can ring when I want something lol. Man that would drive the kids nuts. MUUUUWAHAHAHAHAHA!!

Our mild winter disappeared somewhere and I think to never be seen again. It is cold out. I’m getting impatient waiting for spring to come. We had to 4 wheel down the driveway this morning. Wheeeeeeeeeeee! Danny parked a little too close to the porch for me and we got stuck in a drift. Shifted into 4 wheel drive and off we went! I love 4 wheel drive. Yes, I was naughty and I went out today. He said bank and then Walmart and I was out of that bed like a shot crutching down the hall to get dressed lol. I had to get some things there that I personally wanted to get. Not that I don’t trust him, but it was something I wanted to do too. I rode on the electric carts. They are faster than the ones at the grocery lol. I almost ran Danny over lol. That woulda been funny. I can just see the look on his face lol. I rested when I got home and even managed a nap with all of the kids that I have here tonight. I miss Danny tonight. 40 minutes til he gets home. I have found that I miss him more when I am not feeling very well. His mere presence in the house makes me feel better. It is comforting and soothing. I guess it is because he is my rock and foundation in all of this and he makes me feel safe. Safe like if anything happens to me he is here. Safe like I am protected. I always fear that someone is going to break in and I can not defend myself and the girls. I have my dog and I know he will attack someone if something happened, but, he can be overpowered and hurt. I guess Danny is just my safe haven in this storm of life.