Sorry I have been slacking on my blog, but there really hasn’t been too much going on lately. Same thing different day. Still no toe movement and it has been one week exactly since the steroid injection in my foot. Still have pain and swelling and managing with the crutches. I still have not figured out how to sleep with the dang thing elevated. I always kick out the pillows I have my leg propped up on. So I wake up all nice and swollen. Anyone have any ideas please let me know.

Prayers are needed for friends of ours. One of the guys that worked with Danny for a time (he moved on to new employment) fell 25 feet last night and was not expected to make it thru the night. He sustained severe head trauma. His wife still works with Danny but is currently on maternity leave. Their baby is now 2 months old. These are just wonderful people. Always smiling, laughing, quick with a joke, just in general good people. Between them they have 11 kids. Please pray for this family.

This has really hit home for me and Danny. Working in a shop can be dangerous. Heck working anywhere can be. I always tell Danny when he leaves for work in the afternoons I love you and be careful. After he tells me last night about our friend, he proceeds to tell me that he scampered up a boom and didn’t tie off. I promptly told him he better (bleep) tie off because if anything happens I will be that (bleep) standing over your hospital bed yelling at you that you were an (bleep) and that you better (bleep) stay in a coma until I’m done being (bleep) pissed off at you for such a stupid move. You don’t want to be awake right now cuz I am really (bleep) pissed off at you. I wouldn’t really do that tho. I would be crying my eyes out and praying and holding his hand and talking to him and telling him I love him, and just really beside myself. Please kiss your loved one and tell them you love them before they leave for work. I do not know what I would do without Danny. It would be like losing a part of me that I could never have back. He is my rock, my shelter in the storm of life, my everything.

Yesterday was an incredibly bad RA day. I do not where this came from or why. I was simply miserable. I still am. I could not sit, stand, walk, or do anything comfortably. My girls (I LOVE YOU GIRLIES!!!) helped so much yesterday. Arielle made dinner as usual. Danielle volunteered to wash, condition, and brush my hair for me. She did a darn good job too. She even helped me in and out of the tub. That is something she usually has Ellie do since she is at that where seeing mom nekkie is a little uncomfy. Once she gets comfy with her changing body, that will all change. Yesterday was the first time I could not wash my hair by myself. Sigh. Is winter over yet? Can I do the I Dream of Jeannie blink and make it Spring? I’m having the toughest time this winter. I have been thru a partial and full winter since coming back from AZ. This is the first one that really has made an impact on my RA. I guess I better get my butt of denial and face the facts. Winter sucks. LOL. I love the snow and all the fun you can have it in, but this cold weather for sure does not love me at all. Danny said to me, hun I expected this to happen. Why do you think I dreaded moving back up here. I guess I convinced myself that it wouldn’t happen since it took so dang long to happen. I miss remission I really do. Granted my meds were keeping me in remission, but who cares it was remission. I was basically in it up until I got sick in Oct. and I can’t seem to reach that again. I don’t even come close lately. It is a mile away it seems like. Even the meds are not keeping the hungry wolf that is RA at bay. Thank goodness for my family that keeps me strong and keeps me from giving up hope. They never view me as I view myself at times. As a partial person. A person that can no longer contribute what she needs to for her family. They are just happy that I am Mom, wife, friend, companion, and the list goes on. Without them, I would be much worse off emotional wise than what I am. Prozac helps too lol.
It was a sleepless night for me. The new of our friend plus the pain that woke me at 2am did not allow for sleep. I finally got Danny into a nice sleep about 330am. He tossed and turned and clung to me. We normally sleep snuggled up together but he was really snuggled up to me. My mouth feels fuzzy from too many Tums. I think I will go brush my teeth and lie back down. I can’t sit here anymore anyways. UGH. I’m gonna hate not being online for a long period of time lol. I do so much research and stuff. This is really gonna be suckie!!! Flare, flare, go away. Don’t come again any other day!!!