family day

Well, I finally got of the house for some fun and recreation instead of just going up the street to the doctor. It felt very good to get out. Now I am tired lol. We were going to go to this big electronic sale over at the Expo Center, but changed our minds after we saw we had to pay to park, pay an entrance fee, and a guy told us the inexpensive stuff was gone and no one was really making any good deals on the more expensive stuff. What a bummer because I was hoping to get an inexpensive MP3 player there. I like my music and it helps me to relax, but not everyone wants to listen to music when I want to lol. My daughter has a fit when I snag her CD player lol. So momma needs her own thingie to play music and an MP3 player would be perfect. Small enuf to fit in the bed with me so I can listen to relaxation stuff before falling asleep or just listen to music and read.

We decided to take a drive up the lakefront. We had never really been past Veterans Park. Which is an awesome place. The houses that we saw were just OMG beautiful. The only drawback was that they were really close together. If I had a house like that I wouldn’t want to be on top of my neighbor even tho the view of the lake was awesome. We got hungry so we decided to go out to eat. We ended up at Tumbleweeds (it is like Chili’s) and the food was awesome. Then we headed out to the hobby store. This place was amazing. I didn’t even get thru the whole store lol. Danielle got sea monkeys, Arielle got this kit where you can make hanging lights (the lights were included), and we got our nephew a radio controlled plane that is perfect for first time flyers. Then we headed home.

I just didn’t realize how worn out and tired I really am from today until I sat down in front of the computer. RA really takes a lot out of you. It is frustrating and somewhat depressing. I am trying not to focus on that since it was such a fun family day. I get upset that my body is failing me. I feel like I am imprisoned sometimes. I peek between the bars and see life. It’s like I can reach out and just miss touching real life. My fingertips don’t even brush against it. My body and brain thirst for physical activity and there is nothing I can do to quench that thirst. I am dehydrating and withering into dust. There must be some way to get a pardon. I love my family and thankfully they are understanding and work around my limitations. We still find ways to live life and have fun. I just wish there was more freedom to it and I wasn’t imprisoned in a body that fails me. Someone will help me break out someday.

Oooooo I got a donut lol. They had to go get bottled water for the sea monkeys. Danny is going to help Danielle with those. I am going to go put on me jammies and get this dang foot elevated. Arielle can sit with me and we can work on folding up the paper…well I think it is really cardstock lol…for the lanterns.